Real Friends are not YOU,

so this morning I put the last of the pieces together to a puzzle that I've been trying to put together for years. This puzzle is not physical, but rather a metaphor to the confusion I had as to why I lost 2 of my closest friends for no apparent reason. Well I found out why. Friend #1 (guera) told me that Enemy #1 told her something 2 years ago. This made Friend feel like I betrayed her which is something I would never intentionally do. However, I lost 2 years of what could have been a good friendship to this ENEMY that I have been battling with for the past year. This ENEMY was once considered my friend. But after numerous accounts of abuse (friendship abuse), it is time for this ROACH to be cut out of my life. Not only did I loose Friend #1 to ENEMY, but Friend #2 also has been lied to by ENEMY. Although I wasn't as close to Friend #2, i still loved her very much and to have her pull away from me was a really sad thing. && to know it was all in the hands of this girl is the saddest part. She is so fake! She has the nerve to say she can't stand females and she can't stand fake people but she is the grimiest of them all. Her actions include:

• lying for no apparent reason
• making rude comments toward me
• blaming me for unecessary crap
• being extremely inconsiderate on numerous occassions
• causing others to be late, causing others to pay for her needs with no regard to how this affects others
• doing whatever it takes to get people to give her what she wants and then being rude about it when they didn't have to help her in the first place
• wasting people's gas to the extreme
• inviting herself numerous places unwanted
• and the list goes on...these just stood out the most

Anywho, as of this morning I wanted to just sock her in her effin mouth because she is always running it and it is the cause to all of the recent drama in my life. But luckily I wasn't anywhere near her as I was in San Diego (100 miles away). Then when I got home I was tired from driving 4 hours so I took a nap. Meanwhile, I had some good dreams and good thoughts. I have since calmed down. Tomorrow I am going to get myself together and discipline myself to represent myself like a lady and the young Christian woman I am growing to be. I have decided to forgive her, but cut her out of my life for good. I don't need anyone in my life that will be that fake and that sneaky and coniving. That sounds a lot like the devil to me...idk. Anywho...I figured I would just let it all out in my blog.

Glad to have God,

[Cee].