&& so am I. Today was not such a good day. My parent made me feel really horrible. I don't see him much so it's hard to take it when he says I'm all these things I'm not. Granted, I am not perfect. I was once a VERY selfish individual. However, I have been working on my selflessness for the past 2 years. I have been extremely loving, tolerant of others, and giving to everyone around me. Sometimes I have even had my heart broken, stomped on, or walked over because of my newfound kindnes. However, he fails to realized that the slip ups I have are not intentional. If I do something selfish, it's not because I intend to hurt someone. Its simply because I am not thinking about what everyone esle wants all the time. But most of the time I do take others into consideration. && it kills me so much inside to be bashed on when I slip up one time. It hurts because I am trying so hard to improve myself and to be a better person but when I take 1 step in the wrong direction ALLLLLL the past mistakes have to be held against me. I'm tired of crying over spilled milk. I'm tired of being looked at as this HORRIBLE person inside when I'm a very loving person. I mean they say that SELFISH people are in denial and they make excuses for everything. But I have admitted to my selfishness and everyone is selfish to some extent. I am not perfect damn! Anywho...I just wish he could see how beautiful of a person I really am inside. If you ask any of my real friends they will tell you how dependable I am if they ever need me. How giving I am, and how I have a big heart and love to help people. So...this act is getting ridiculous. I am ready to leave the house. I need to go. College...I NEED YOU TO COOPERATE! UGH. Sorry it had to be such a gloomy post...but it will be better next time I promise.
Just venting,
Cee.
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