ensemble numero cinco.

this is charlie brianna. i love her style. i love this outfit. Charlie B's blogspot: theartofcharlie.blogspot.com-->she's fabulous.

Fashionista too,

Cee.

fed up!

Today, I thought too much. As I always do...I let the scattering thoughts that flew across my mind crowd up all the space available to function. So I just laid there in my bed and let the thoughts swim around. && as of today, I am fed up. I am tired of this life. I feel like every day is pointless. I have no job, no work to do (school is almost over), and no responsibilities (no real ones) so I'm stuck. I'm usually involved in something. Now I am doing nothing. The fact that my parents have let me go and allowed me to explore the indepedence that shall follow with my approaching adulthood contributes much to my idleness. && they say idle time is the devil's workshop. i believe this is true. For the past few months of my life, I have been in progress-- keeping myself busy, going to church 3 times a week, and growing as a Christian. I have dropped those out of my life that are bringing me down and worked on myself to become more beautiful on the inside every day. However, since I no longer have a job and I barely have school these days, I believe that my idle time has been an open door for the devil to work in me. I have no clue what my college decision is. I have no clue what I'm going to really do with my life and if i have even the slightest idea, i have no clue how to get there. I have fallen back into the trap of exes. ugh. I know i don't need a man. Sometimes i just feel like I want to be held. Even if it is a relationship I know won't work, and that I know would go nowhere, I still go back to these EXES because I know they love me and I just like the idea of someone loving me. I don't feel completely loved in my home. && to be honest, I love God, but I don't feel his love physically as I want to. I know God loves me, but quite frankly, he doesn't make me feel held at night. He doesn't call me in the morning to tell me Good morning and that he loves me. He doesn't buy me lunch or tell me how great of a person I am. With God I feel punished, not to undermine my constant blessings. But in a relationship, I feel on top of the world. With God, I feel under a rock. So now I'm stuck and feel like I have no way out. I am soooo sick of life right now and just want to move away from everything to define myself with new people and engage myself in new things. I want to act. I want to go to San Diego State University. I do not want to serve in the Air Force, or the Army, or the Navy. I do not want to loose 15 pounds. I want to take acting classes. Sadly, none of these things will go my way. So for now i can only continue to listen to my music, trapped in the world my sleep and trust that God will bring my life back together.

Extremely frustrated,

Cee.

Quotes of the day.

i be ready she dont be... she be ready i dont be.... always missing each
other- Karl.

Hittin' and cussin', no discussin.

-Bernie Mac

Shut that up.

-twins

how u figure???" - chettah

"We dont want macaroni anymore we want steak...and what do we want with our steak? MACARONI!!!" ~ Boy Meets World

love has no color - kevin michael.

simplicity.

classic but so me. i would wear this in a heartbeat. Anywho, just ensemble #4 of the week.

cute,

Cee.

pictures are worth a thousand words.

Tyeisha's bday.

random white people at HomeTown Buffet.

AT Biola University.

Micro runnign them stairs. Get it girl.

get that track OrC!

me and Jo Bro after the meal.

@ our spot El Paso. y e sss 2 happy hour :-).

in line with britt to get some free hot dogs and burgers hehe.

the ring Jo Bro got me...such a good friend.

i peeped it like...thats's cute. Turned my head for 2 secs and JoJo got it for me!

El Paso again.

Jo Jo.

Janella workin on them lunges.
Go Girl's Fitness!

free food again!

Ezz, Britt, and Orc!

sneak peak of thee prom dress for his prom.

sneak peak of dress for my prom...

get uhm Cece....


mmmmmmmhhhhmmmmm.

mmm cake!

get em Britt!

Bree's fantabulous hair after a workout haha.

Biola University...2 many white people for me. sorry.

It's nice campus tho.

Anywho, that was my week described in more pics than words. Its scrambled all up bc it takes forever to upload pics on thee blog and i didnt feel like waiting for ever pic and puttin it in order. Just wayyyy too long. But...anywho more to come very soon.

For this week,

Cee.

#classica. (numero 3)#

classic.
i wanna parka.

i love the cut.

Until later,

Cee.

takeover is coming!

This week is takeover!!! WHEW! its gon' be fun ya'll. I'm asking anyone to come with. I promise it will be the bizz. o && don't forget to stay fresh.

400 Florence Ave
Inglewood, CA

Hit me up for the info. Comment below.

Ensemble Numero dos.

i digg the fit.

me,

Cee.

Sparks of Interest.

So I been peeping this guy James Marsden. He's SEXY. && let me tell you why. First of all for a white boy, look at him...

Second of all, he's such a chameleon. He has been in numerous movies and his parts are so far apart from each other. X-men, 27 dresses, The NoteBook, Sex Drive, Enchanted, Hairspray...etc. He's so versatile. && actors that find the inner drive to perfect their skills and execute it with such brilliance deserve major props. && James Marsden is doing his thang-th-thang. Big Ups to him -- seriously. I have admiration for him and plan learn from him.

That is a sexy man. A man that handles his business, works hard and is bomb at it. I just love that. && I don't even dig white boys like that lol.

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Now to my girl Ellen Page.

I don't think people understand the extent to which Ellen P, a.k.a Juno is on fiyahhh!

Not to many people know about Ellen's projects but takes on roles that are far-fetched and reaching. She is only 21, but she is the shiiiii... Check her out. She's doing big things yo.

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Oh KeKe Palmer.....

Keke is a gangster! I met her before...and she has some ghetto in her lol. But she did not let where she came from prevent her from getting where she's going. In the past 5 years, KeKe has had 3 blockbusters, and her own show. I admire KeKe for what she does. She is following her dreams and works very hard. && she 's only 16.

"Yes I'm hood, H-O-O-D, don't speak on it if you don't know what it means. I came from the hood, over came in the hood, was raised in the hood, yes the hood is in me." -Keke P.

Get it girl! Keep it moving KeKe.

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&& last but not least for today;


Dakota Fanning.

When at 15 years old, you already have worked with Denzel Washington, Sean Penn, Robert Dinero, etc...you have to be the shit. Where does this kidd acquire her level of acting skills? It's just ridiculous! I just want to get inside her head. WTF she isn't even my age yet and is already a multi-millionaire. She is making like 20 million per movie....BOMB. Big Ups to Dakota. You the sh*t girl!

Inspired,

Cee.

No more...

One of my fav Hollywood couples...

I can't believe Nas and Kelis got a divorce. They were the cutest weirdos in their own world I knew. I have very much admiration for Nas. His words are powerful and he uses the microphone effectively unlike these other rappers who waste time (a la Soulja Boy ugh).

"Your a slave to a page in my rhyme book". -Nas

Now Kelis -- she's just a big ass weirdo! But ii Love HER. She has this careless-eff-the-world attitude. &&not to mention she looks cute when doing it lol. You know when people say "oh I don't care about anything, eff the world", they usually look like this:

Luckily Kelis cares about her appearance lol, bomb.

Anywho...they were adorable together. I could only imagine that their world was on some whole other level lol...on another planet. && to see the demise of their relationship, just gives me no hope these days. Nobody lasts anymore. Makes me wonder about my outlook. Eh.

One of those boo-missing days again,

Cee.