I can swirl!

so i was thinkin...i don't think i would mind dating a white boy too much if he looked like this. haha...for a country boy...he's bomb. && yes that is Sawyer from Lost, the show.

hook me up God?

Cee.

Ayda- Gotta Get Out (cover)

I wish I had this kind of talent,

Cee.

new life.

so today my father knocks on my bedroom door and says "so are you ready to go"? I reply, "I guess I have no choice". In about 2 weeks I'll be shipping off to bootcamp and going to San Antonio, Texas. I'll be there for 2 months, and after I'll go somewhere else for job training. I'll be living where my job is and after that I will be living on my own. So basically, at 18 years old I'm moving out! Not only am I moving out, I'm moving to another part of the country, which is harder than a normal 18 year old who moves to the next city and comes back home to do laundry. I don't get to come back to visit for thanksgiving, or christmas and I'll be living in another state for at least 6 months before they tell me where I'll be living permanentaly...or at least until I get deployed (possibly). So, despite the fact that I'm leaving in 2 weeks and some days, I haven't packed a single thing. I guess I figure, one I start packing, its official. I'm extremely bored out of my mind at home but I'm still not ready to leave. I'll miss teaming up with my sister to clown my parentals...and I'll miss fighting my little sis. I'll miss it all. I'm going to be all alone, in another state and on my own. It's an exciting, yet scary thought. I'm very anxious to leave but would be lying if I said I'm not ready to go...

I'm just ready for a new beginning.

Always,

Cee.

Tyra: A BIG LET Down.

So, it is rumored that Tyra Banks hires a set of cast members to say the outrageous comments we often hear on the Tyra show. Things like, "I don't see myself as black and I don't like black people", even though the lady saying it is the blackest person we've all seen. Well recent reports say that Tyra finds these people from casting websites and hires them to say the things they do for ratings. Check out what one of the former talk show workers said :

I know I am hated all over right now. But as someone who is on this website I hope you understand that this was for televison purposes only..We were told how to act and what characters to portray. I am not done with the Tyra yet I will be going back. I have been in contact with other members who were on the show and we constantly talk about how the producers never warned us about the out come, but we knew already but still it would have been cool if they warned us. We were put on the show to bring in great ratings and that’s what we did despite us looking like total as*holes.. Trust me I am hurt by what I have said and all of the peoples feelings I’ve hurt but i am no where close to how I was portrayed on the show. My best friend is darkskin and I call him my brother...He recently made a video response saying how its crazy what people have to do just to get seen but i told him not to post it because I did sign a contract with the show and i didnt read it so I dont want to be sued….You should know the show is scripted. There are plenty of the other cast members on this site. Many of the cast members were picked off of acting websites and they are really great people. I KNOW IT SUCKS WHAT I DID BUT ALL OF US WERE DESPERATE TO GET OUR START AND FACES SEEN. I will be doing plenty of other things soon

That is such a let down. I looked up to Tyra because I thought she was making moves. The people that were on her show seemed to be very
closed minded people or people with low self esteem, but instead of Tyra really
opening their eyes, she's just paying them to make it appear as so. This is such
a dissapointment! Dang, Tyra why did you have to be so greedy. I mean she
already does so much already, is it necessary to be so deceitful for money. But
I guesss that's Hollywood and it's how we all survive right? SMH of the DAY.

this is ridiculous,

Cee.

on blast.

so i was on myspace music today about to type in Judacamp...because they were this really cool group of young people that showed their talents at takeover church service today. But in the process I saw my ex's face down in featured artists. It made me do some thinking...and to say he was a great boyfriend when i had the chance i'm so grateful he was in my life when he was and that i'm no longer with him. While we were together he was the sweetest thing...soo sweet in fact i called him Sweetz haha. I learned very good life lessons from him, such as be yourself and don't care what people think of you. That is what helped me not to drink and not to smoke because we were always the couple that came to the party and would be sober and didn't touch the weed. This has shaped me to have good life habits and healthy ones but Boy am I glad I broke up with that nigga long ago! Who he has become is completely different from what I have come to be. We are in opposite directions and now in completely opposite worlds. AND I'm glad to be in this one with Christ than in his with all the sex, the money, the fame, and unecessary sin. If I were to stay with him...i may be involved in all that. I mean he is definitely his own individual but it appears he looks up to Lil' Wayne way too much. && as a personal concern, I just wish he'd look up to Jesus. When all is said and done I've got to thank him for his time in my life...but I still do care enough about him to pray for him and I want you guys to do so too. Continue to pray for him that he realizes that there's more to life than cars, boppas, and mula. I personally don't think he'll ever care, but if there's any hope, I'd like to salvage it. && pray for those I care for. It just hurts to see those who I love (really love) fall. & they don't know they are bc in their eyes their successful but in God's eyes, not so much.

In my prayers young one,

Dmplz.

17!

omg I absolutely love this girl's style. I wonder where she finds these things...i would soooo wear this. It's my style to the T! I love ALMOST everything this girl wears...charlie B -->theartofcharlie.blogspot.com. =D.

anxious,

Cee.

why is it everytime i go to the library...

somebody is getting ARRESTED? lol. This is ridiculous. && you would think in harmless little Lomita, this kind of trouble wouldn't come to an arrest in the front of Lomita Library...but sadly and surely it did. SMH.

Dude's bike got flipped over, got searched and everything. I am willing to guess he must have had a large sum of drugs on him...idk. Anywho...I just thought I'd share what I caught with you today.

On the flip side,

[Cee].