too blessed to be stressed,

is what I am. I have been stressed out with all this senior work, and finals, and boys, and dealing with future plans. I think its because I don't have reup anymore to keep me on point. && i also don't have bible study to keep me encouraged to live like a Christian daily. Well now that my night class is over, I have been back to bible study. In the meantime, I was back sliding and fulfilling my own pleasures knowing that I have not been pleasing God. However when things start getting scary, I called on God and asked him to show me how he promised to be my provider (jehovah jirah). && sure enough he did. I have been getting gas money from random people. They are the only reason I'm still driving. I have $0 in my bank account because I no longer have a job and there were so many things I had to pay for. Now today, I was on my way to committing a horrible horrible sin -- One that I haven't committed in a very long time. However, before I even got to get there, Urban Outfitters called to say I had an interview (i never get interviews)...so exciting!!! Anywho, i believe that was a sign from God. I think he was trying to tell me "chantelle, don't do it. i have an oppurtunity for you so don't mess it up". With that said, God has showed me how he can be my provider and I'm grateful he even had my back like that. Mannnnn God is good! mmmmmmmhm. Thus, I am reminded that I am blessed and have been for a while now. Blessings were scarce for a minuto but they're back. God is ever so merciful. Anywho...i can't be stressed anymore with a move like that. God gives me inner joy that is beyond human understanding.

Joyful,

Cee.