12.8.08

destiny and its confusing path,

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has been riddling me for the past year. I've been getting signs from everywhere that my fate with this (let's call him #1) #1 is meant but there are other confusing signs that say otherwise. I've had dreams of #1 telling me that in the end of it all, he'll be mine. But then again, they say your dreams are only a vision of whats going on in your subconscious mind. This could possibly be true; could it be that my wants and desires of being with #1 are subconsciously illustrated and come out through my dreams? Then this means none of the dreams are even irrelevant. However the picture above is kind of a different sign. That right there is my finger. In the middle of my finger (in case you can't tell) is a heart-shaped wart. LOL, yes a wart....but you know how I got that wart? The story goes a little something like this:
One night #1 had a birthday party. Since his parents let him stay up until whenever, this party was from 8 pm until 3 am. Knowing that my parents wouldn't let me out at this time of night, I bravely snuck out the house borrowing my mother's car. Now keep in mind that these are 2 factors against me already; borrowing my mother's car without permission (1) and sneaking out the house (2). As I couldn't leave until about 10 because I was rehearsing for a show that night, I picked up some friends of mine (got lost on the way there [1 more factor] and didn't arrive at the party until about 12. I thought to myself, "oh it won't matter cuz the real party won't start until 12 anyways"... WRONG!! Much to my surprise, authorities made everybody leave because we had a city curfew being that we were under 18. So I got to listen to 2 songs and was forced out of the building. Would you look at that!!! 2 more horrible factors to add to my night; i wasted $20 on gas (1) and $10 to get into the party (2) just to have to leave 15 minutes later. WOW!
It's not even over yet...we got to the car and IT WOULDN'T START! O M G...it took me 20 mins trying to turn the key in the ignition to get it started. The car does this all the time but it never took me that long to make it start. I was panicking thinking I wasn't going to get my friends home in time OR WORST; I was going to have to call somebody for help which would ultimately reveal that I wasn't supposed to be out at all. Mann...(2 more factors). So when we add this all up I had 7 factors looking down on me telling me this whole night shouldn't have happened.
However, when I woke up in the morning...this wart was on my index finger. A perfect heart. What could this mean? After going through all that for this #1, I had to think that this was a sign. After telling numerous individuals about my night and the outcome after it all, my collective response was "It's Fate!". I still don't know...what do you think???

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