What if [Cee].

2010-03-23T09:22:00.000-07:00

its about that time,

2010-01-02T11:31:00.000-08:00

because i'm out of bootcamp for the Air Force now. I suppose its time to restart this blog. I have some stories to share...but as of now I'm still trying to figure out this place i live in (Sheppard Air Force Base) and the freedoms i currently have...sooo I'll holla at yall when I do. Which should be clearer to me this week. Mhhm. So yeah...i'll say sianara for now but I'll be back laterz for good. :-).

until then,

[Cee].

bootcamp.

2009-12-10T14:38:00.000-08:00

graduating tomorrow. Let's gooooo....then on to Tech School...my job is Mental Health...eggzactly what i wanted! So I've heard Tech School is like more fun than college....lets go. I'm ready. BTW I'll be back in Cali on the 26th of Dec.

until then,

Love Cee.

im going crazy (in a bad way).

2009-10-09T22:01:00.001-07:00

Ok....so I don't even know where to start, but I'll start here:

Once upon a time I had very little interest in a boy. This boy had major steez, big sexy lips, and all the girls wanted him. I didn't really get why everybody wanted him because I didn't think he was cute. But then after time went by, he grew on me. It didn't help that all my girl friends were in my ear tellin' me how fine he was. So out of boredom, I got with him. Before I got with him, I had a feeling I shouldn't. I don't know what it was, but everytime I thought about it, my heart would race and I would think...its wrong to date this boy, isn't it? I felt like God was telling me not to date him, and I ignored the feelings and did it anyway. After that I suffered for a very long time...Not only was the relationship unsatisfying, but so was everything else in life. I remember having my car break down, having horrible luck with job searching, and just everything I could think of...was going wrong!

Now a year later, I get this same feeling about joining the Air Force. 3 days before I am supposed to ship off, I am depressed because I'm thinking about all the things that were "possible signs" telling me I shouldn't go.

sign #1: my friend's mother talked to me about and said if i wasn't at peace with it in my heart, I should pray about it
sign #2: i burned my fingers, which is a reason for them to possibly reject me (which I'm still not sure if they will or won't)
sign #3: i gained weight so much in 3 months that I went from near the minimum to near the maximum and now if I gain a few more pounds (they won't let me go...which is possible since people want to go out to eat for the last few days)
sign #4: my period is about to come like in the next few days and when i'm bloaded i put on weight so that could very well contribute to me not going
sign #5: i spent all day looking for some documents that i needed to go and I couldn't find them...i thought I really wasn't going to be able to go but I found them (only during the time I coulnd't find them i thought it was a sign that I wasn't meant to go)
sign #6: my pee test must clear to go and that means i can't do any drugs...so i'm afraid if i take pain pills for my period pain, it'll show in my pee and then i won't be able to go

So now after all of this, and now that I have 3 days left...I'm wondering if this is God or if this is the devil. If it's God, its unsettling to me that after all this time, that he would still let me go thorugh all of this. It would be a humongous lesson and completely suck beyond ridiculous compare. I think I would be so mad at God for a long time that I wouldn't even let him use me if I had to stay back home. That's not cool. Like he could use me while I'm making money, getting my life together and becoming an adult. This is soooo unfair!!!!

I'm also wondering if this is the devil, because he might know that this step in my life is going to get me far and is going to make me a better person or catipult me into a better christian walk...and lifestyle. He could be making circumstances work out for the worst for me so that I could break and so that I could turn away from God like how he tested Job when he took everything from him and wondered if he's still going to praise God. Job had it waayyy worst. Job lost his family members...his children died and his wife died and his riches were taken away...all of that and through it all, Job still praised God. But I'm not as strong as Job is and if God is allowing the devil to test me, he must know I'm going to fail. So why even do it in the 1st place.

So rather the test is coming from God or the struggle is dealing with the devil, the devil wins if I don't go to the Air Force. So I need to go...THIS IS SO UNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so in the next 3 days, I guess we're going to find out if I'm going to be able to go...and man it's going to suck if I don't...you don't even understand how much...like I would almost want to kill myself if I wasn't black lol...

what the eff,

Cee.

5 days.

2009-10-06T23:25:00.000-07:00

so in 5 days, I will be shipping off to bootcamp for the U.S. Air Force...

i guess to others its a big deal. but for me, the air force is on a smaller scale of my life.

the excitement lies with starting a new life and being able to do all of these things while i'm young.

i'm ready to just go and get bootcamp over with...ugh. but at the same time use it as my platform to start over...nobody knows who i am...so who i want to be, will be who they know me as,

i'll start over.

lets gooo.
Cee.

I can swirl!

2009-09-29T02:20:00.000-07:00

so i was thinkin...i don't think i would mind dating a white boy too much if he looked like this. haha...for a country boy...he's bomb. && yes that is Sawyer from Lost, the show.

hook me up God?

Cee.

Ayda- Gotta Get Out (cover)

2009-09-29T02:19:00.000-07:00

I wish I had this kind of talent,

Cee.

new life.

2009-09-25T09:41:00.000-07:00

so today my father knocks on my bedroom door and says "so are you ready to go"? I reply, "I guess I have no choice". In about 2 weeks I'll be shipping off to bootcamp and going to San Antonio, Texas. I'll be there for 2 months, and after I'll go somewhere else for job training. I'll be living where my job is and after that I will be living on my own. So basically, at 18 years old I'm moving out! Not only am I moving out, I'm moving to another part of the country, which is harder than a normal 18 year old who moves to the next city and comes back home to do laundry. I don't get to come back to visit for thanksgiving, or christmas and I'll be living in another state for at least 6 months before they tell me where I'll be living permanentaly...or at least until I get deployed (possibly). So, despite the fact that I'm leaving in 2 weeks and some days, I haven't packed a single thing. I guess I figure, one I start packing, its official. I'm extremely bored out of my mind at home but I'm still not ready to leave. I'll miss teaming up with my sister to clown my parentals...and I'll miss fighting my little sis. I'll miss it all. I'm going to be all alone, in another state and on my own. It's an exciting, yet scary thought. I'm very anxious to leave but would be lying if I said I'm not ready to go...

I'm just ready for a new beginning.

Always,

Cee.

Tyra: A BIG LET Down.

2009-09-18T13:37:00.000-07:00

So, it is rumored that Tyra Banks hires a set of cast members to say the outrageous comments we often hear on the Tyra show. Things like, "I don't see myself as black and I don't like black people", even though the lady saying it is the blackest person we've all seen. Well recent reports say that Tyra finds these people from casting websites and hires them to say the things they do for ratings. Check out what one of the former talk show workers said :

I know I am hated all over right now. But as someone who is on this website I hope you understand that this was for televison purposes only..We were told how to act and what characters to portray. I am not done with the Tyra yet I will be going back. I have been in contact with other members who were on the show and we constantly talk about how the producers never warned us about the out come, but we knew already but still it would have been cool if they warned us. We were put on the show to bring in great ratings and that’s what we did despite us looking like total as*holes.. Trust me I am hurt by what I have said and all of the peoples feelings I’ve hurt but i am no where close to how I was portrayed on the show. My best friend is darkskin and I call him my brother...He recently made a video response saying how its crazy what people have to do just to get seen but i told him not to post it because I did sign a contract with the show and i didnt read it so I dont want to be sued….You should know the show is scripted. There are plenty of the other cast members on this site. Many of the cast members were picked off of acting websites and they are really great people. I KNOW IT SUCKS WHAT I DID BUT ALL OF US WERE DESPERATE TO GET OUR START AND FACES SEEN. I will be doing plenty of other things soon

That is such a let down. I looked up to Tyra because I thought she was making moves. The people that were on her show seemed to be very
closed minded people or people with low self esteem, but instead of Tyra really
opening their eyes, she's just paying them to make it appear as so. This is such
a dissapointment! Dang, Tyra why did you have to be so greedy. I mean she
already does so much already, is it necessary to be so deceitful for money. But
I guesss that's Hollywood and it's how we all survive right? SMH of the DAY.

this is ridiculous,

Cee.

on blast.

2009-09-13T20:18:00.000-07:00

so i was on myspace music today about to type in Judacamp...because they were this really cool group of young people that showed their talents at takeover church service today. But in the process I saw my ex's face down in featured artists. It made me do some thinking...and to say he was a great boyfriend when i had the chance i'm so grateful he was in my life when he was and that i'm no longer with him. While we were together he was the sweetest thing...soo sweet in fact i called him Sweetz haha. I learned very good life lessons from him, such as be yourself and don't care what people think of you. That is what helped me not to drink and not to smoke because we were always the couple that came to the party and would be sober and didn't touch the weed. This has shaped me to have good life habits and healthy ones but Boy am I glad I broke up with that nigga long ago! Who he has become is completely different from what I have come to be. We are in opposite directions and now in completely opposite worlds. AND I'm glad to be in this one with Christ than in his with all the sex, the money, the fame, and unecessary sin. If I were to stay with him...i may be involved in all that. I mean he is definitely his own individual but it appears he looks up to Lil' Wayne way too much. && as a personal concern, I just wish he'd look up to Jesus. When all is said and done I've got to thank him for his time in my life...but I still do care enough about him to pray for him and I want you guys to do so too. Continue to pray for him that he realizes that there's more to life than cars, boppas, and mula. I personally don't think he'll ever care, but if there's any hope, I'd like to salvage it. && pray for those I care for. It just hurts to see those who I love (really love) fall. & they don't know they are bc in their eyes their successful but in God's eyes, not so much.

In my prayers young one,

Dmplz.

17!

2009-09-07T13:05:00.000-07:00

omg I absolutely love this girl's style. I wonder where she finds these things...i would soooo wear this. It's my style to the T! I love ALMOST everything this girl wears...charlie B -->theartofcharlie.blogspot.com. =D.

anxious,

Cee.

why is it everytime i go to the library...

2009-09-03T15:04:00.000-07:00

somebody is getting ARRESTED? lol. This is ridiculous. && you would think in harmless little Lomita, this kind of trouble wouldn't come to an arrest in the front of Lomita Library...but sadly and surely it did. SMH.

Dude's bike got flipped over, got searched and everything. I am willing to guess he must have had a large sum of drugs on him...idk. Anywho...I just thought I'd share what I caught with you today.

On the flip side,

[Cee].

16.

2009-08-29T20:59:00.001-07:00

i love her style.

Cee.

my day.

2009-08-29T20:21:00.000-07:00

i thought this giant Vans shoe was dope. I want one in my room haha.

so i went out with Ezz and Orc today...nice long day of shopping! but I didn't get much on account of I'm on a budget ( a tight one) until October 13th. Oh yeah, so my date of departure is October 13th, and I'm off to the Air Force in San Antonio, Texas. Crazy huh? yeah...anywho back to the day. Ezz is experiencing her 1st week of real independence with her new car and a lisence. Its such a relief not to have to drive and pick everybody else...now Ezz gets to do it haha!

welp this computer is really messin' up right now so i'm going to call this the end of my blog...ugh.

until later,

Cee.

quince.

2009-08-20T13:03:00.000-07:00

mmm red,

Cee.

2009-08-19T13:47:00.000-07:00

coo weekend with Jojo and Bree. I love them. Shopping in Mexico City (Wilmas haha), morning run and bike ride, breakfast with blueberry muffins, great spaghetti and meatballs, chillin on the patio with hot fries and hot cheeto puffs, friday night movies...nice chill weekend with these kids.

satisfied,

Cee.

I Love GRITS!

2009-08-19T13:38:00.000-07:00

I mean the rap group. haha. They are called G.R.I.T.S. Super beat. The only thing I can say is you HAVE TO GO check them out. I'm stuck on their song called "Be Mine" right now. Just go listen to them...NOW.

inspired,

Cee.

smh at LBC in its entirety.

2009-08-16T12:52:00.001-07:00

so i was walkin downtown in Long Beach because parking can be such a pain. && I see the po-po --a trail of like 5 cop cars-- chasing this old white cadillac. I think some people were whispering that the car was stolen lol. So this old white man was driving all wild as if it were hot wired and this mexican dude got out the car too. Hilarious. Of course it would be in Long Beach. This is not the 1st time I have written about LBC because there's always something crazy going on down there.

so not only did this happen, but in the same day, in the same 5 minutes I'm about to cross the street right? && this man is just standing in the middle of the street on the train tracks. The lights kept changing but he wouldn't move. He was just posing as if people should take a picture of him. I'm thinking "what is he doing". Only in Long Beach. Look:

strike a pose.

and no that is not all. Within the same 5 minutes I see this hideous lime green truck with lime green wheels. I'm thinkin' I got enough chaos captured on film today so I couldn't catch it in time. But sadly the car made a u-turn cuz they were trynna holla. So when they came back around I took a picture of the back but I had to wait for them to get behind me because I was not trynna stop and talk to these old, ignorant, geezers!

It just wouldn't end. I saw this girl from a distance and I thought she had a cute blue and beige scarf to the side. I got closer to discover that it was blonde and bright blue braids. Come on girl. We need to do better. Colored braids? Can you get a job with blue braids...like. sheesh. smh to the fullest extent to LBC, where doo-doo's, crackheads, and old geezers can call it home.

Cee.

everybody's leaving.

2009-08-16T12:35:00.000-07:00

so Moriah is gone today. Poor thing; Great thing. Really this kidd has been such an inspiration to my life. I have desired to be a much greater christian just observing his walk. I started to read my bible more and study it on my own time which is something I would have never thought to do before. I also learned that kindness goes beyond your immediate circle. Of course because of the many things I learn in Soulfood Bible Study (400 florence ave, inglewood 90301 @ 7:30 on tuesday nights), I can't give him all the credit. However, I must say that he was in my life for a reason and I'm glad to know I picked up that lesson early on. Like I said in one of those earlier posts, I believe every person is put in your life for a reason. It takes me a little longer than others to figure that reason out, but nonetheless I still believe so. So now Moriah is gone out of my life besides the distant comments of facebook and aim. He's off to college on the other side of the country. Have fun at Tuskagee bro. && don't forget my bomb cake lol. (really guys i make bomb cake). I know that God has your back and all things will work together for the good (Romans 8:28) and that your purpose will be fulfilled. Stay in Christ bro.

much love,

Cee.

next hairstyle.

2009-08-16T11:05:00.001-07:00

&& im going back to this. & I had this way before Rihanna decided to cut hers off. Just thought I'd let you know.

retired fashionista,

Cee.

numero 14.

2009-08-16T11:04:00.000-07:00

charlie B! theartofcharlie.blogspot.com

Cee.

hatin'. lol.

2009-08-16T11:02:00.000-07:00

oh no.

cee.

Orcim!!!

2009-08-16T10:56:00.000-07:00

aww my dear Orc. Just thought this was cute. Well her name is Micro but I call her Orcim cuz its micro backwards...see...but 4 short Orc...and she calls me Ellet (same concept) haha. Anywho this kidd is soooo freaggin coo. Just thought I'd let ya know.

Cee.

13.

2009-08-12T12:13:00.001-07:00

i'm a huge fan of bows.

cee.

to travel. to live.

2009-08-10T04:23:00.001-07:00

switzerland fall.

barcelona hotel.

ireland cottage.

baltimore ireland

so the air force is going to be an oppurtunity i look forward to taking advantage of. I want to travel to these places...Ireland. Spain. Switzerland? haha. It's gonna be a fun 4 years ahead.

quite anxious,

Cee.

breathing in adele.

2009-08-10T04:18:00.000-07:00

interpret as you please.

cee.

pretty wings better than maxwell much?

2009-08-10T02:56:00.000-07:00

so i was reading this blogspot, welcometotheswaggatory.blogspot.com, and this kidd put these 2 videos to ask who sang Maxwell's Pretty Wings better. This one won by far! but feel free to look at the other boy if you want...just go to that blog above.

dang,

Cee,

Friday afternoon adventures.

2009-08-08T21:27:00.000-07:00

so me and my beloved JoJo and Bree went to Santa Monica to the promenade to do a lil shoppin, sippin Jamba, and eatin'. It was quite a day lol. Well the plan initially was to pick Joseph up at noon and then go to Carson to pick up this radio from my friend Kita, then on to Santa Monica. But the day took a left turn lol. What had happened was...

so I aimed Kita on my way to JoJo's house saying I'd be there within the hour...she said coo. So I get to Jojo's house and he said "1 minute, there's a overflow in the bathroom" (hey it happens). So I said ok meanwhile trying to decide if I should wear this dress I had on with leggings or without them. So I asked him if there was full length mirror in the house and there was so I went in. So when I got in there lol; I was in the room but I heard JoJo and Debra (his sis) in the bathroom like "oooo, my back hurts. This is too much", meanwhile water is splashing lol. I'm in the room dying...so but I asked if they need help. I dialed the plumber's number and it is now going on 1230. so the plumber said he'll be there between 1 and 2. but i lost service so I couldn't even tell Kita I wasn't gonna be there when I said I would. So the 3 of us are in the house waitin for the plumber...he gets there at 120. so then he sees us and walks back out the house and said he's going to call the manager real quick. THIS NIGGA DIDNT COME BACK. So we had to call somebody else...and wait lol. 2 o clock approaches and here comes the plumber (good thing i have patience). So then they are fixin the issue and Aunt Pearl comes over so me and Jo can be out and I head to Kita's house. By this time its like 240 or somethin and I lost service in the house so I erased the convo with Kita and those had the directions. so I'm over in Carson lookin for her car on the street I remembered she said and those streets in Carson are so confusing. So then i remember Charles told me he lived near there so I take a visit to his house. haha. I'm driving around later and I happen to find her car so I walk up to her house like 315 and she's like "girl you said in the hour" lol. Ooops. so then Bree finally decides to text us after we been trying to reach her for like a week and tells us she's down the street. so I go get her and off we are to santa monica...with ridiculous traffic so we get there at like 4 somethin. sheesh.

Nonetheless we had fun! We had some good conversations and some good laughs and also some entertainment. There were these boys dancing in the middle of the alley way:

then we went to Christian's house...thats the homieee! && after we went back to Jo's. What a day.

feeling loved,

Cee.

haha. Best I Ever Had white boy.

2009-08-08T20:56:00.000-07:00

i just thought this was cute haha.

Cee.

P.S. These too:

Jesus!

2009-08-07T02:01:00.000-07:00

incomplete,

Cee.

remember O'ryan?

2009-08-06T17:08:00.001-07:00

oryan is so bomb....mmmmmm. whoever wasn't up on omarion's brother when omarion was out was trippin...cuz this nigga is bomb! I'm just sayin.....sheesh. Look at that. But he had to go and have a baby and Love of HIS Life with Jhene...Lil' Fizz's cousin. ugh. No hope haha.

y e sss,

Cee.

:::sigh::: 12.

2009-08-05T17:10:00.000-07:00

i'd rock.

cee.

2 much gurl.

2009-08-05T15:47:00.000-07:00

ok so do you remember that serious crush that i told you about a while ago? well its in one of those blog archives on the side lol that is titled serious crush. so i've been in and out of contact with this serious crush for a while now...like a few months and remember when I expressed my anger about this "other girl" snatching him up before I could??...well apparently this relationship isn't making her too happy. so a few months ago, God revealed that this crush DEFINITELY wasn't the one for me and i'm so glad he did, because this girl be going through too much. LOL. I mean I don't know her very well besides the fact that I think she is very pretty. Other than that, I have observed that she gets extra emotional and constantly complains about their relationship through blogs. I feel somewhat sorry for the gal, but I'm also happy she is the one dealing and not I. But it is just funny how she has suspected him of cheating, how she feels like she must conform to please him, and how she feels unappreciated. Now some girls just make up stuff in their head and I'm not saying she is putting this all on herself, but sometimes when you get into the relationship you have to show your full self from the start so that the other person knows who you really are. Not reveal yourself little by little, because you will be frustrated --just like o' girl-- that anytime your true self shows, he doesn't understand or seem to fully accept the true you. So the funny thing about all of this is...I wanted this guy so bad, at a point and time. && i feel bad to say it but it kind of gives me satisfaction to know that this relationship was a failure. "is that because I couldn't have him"...idk. but its funny and I'mma need o' girl to let that crap go. Either he is making her miserable in this relationship, or she is putting to much of a strain on herself over loving this guy. No love should ever make you feel the way this girl says she feels. With that said: "boo, you need to let that go!"

silently laughing with guilt,

Cee.

###@&@!&^&(Z(^%

2009-08-04T00:39:00.000-07:00

ugh!!!!!!!! my father erased my pics of the last day i spent with the twins! ugh! I'm so mad right now ...I can't even keep typing! grrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!

ugh,

Cee.

orphan.

2009-08-04T00:27:00.000-07:00

omg this movie was the Beeee....Iiiiiiii! who came up with that story? That crap was too tight lol. well I just finished watching it and it is now 12:28 am. So I have no doubt that this movie will manifest itself into my dreams bc my dreams have been doing that a lot lately. welp...what a dream i'll have 2night.

Cee.

so they left.

2009-08-01T12:30:00.000-07:00

iits been a week since my twins left me to go onto the navy. I couldn't even write about it the day of because I was too sad to do anything. I just went to sleep so I wouldn't have to think about things for a while. i like sleep. It helps me escape reality for while and sometimes my dreams are much more exciting than life for the day--be it that i sometimes sleep in the middle of the day. Anywho...back to the twins...I really enjoyed their company. They went with me to church every sunday and reup every friday and anytime we heard about events we could do with our church peeps...they were there. Of course I wouldn't want to go anywhere alone, and they were always there to suffice. I think it mostly started bc they didn't have anywhere to go and no money, so anytime anyone would hit them up with somethin' to do, they would be down...simply because they had nothing better to do. But when they came to reup I really think they liked that church...cuz for 1 there are some bomb niggas...and for 2 its a comfortable environment to be in where people don't have to act like they aren't doing anything wrong in their Christian walk, including the leadership figures. So being there felt real, and i believe thats why they liked it so much and kept coming back. && everyone was so cool too...on top of that...so now that they are gone...imma have to do all these things by myself. && i'm trying to find all this stuff to do that isn't disrespectful to God and I don't have many friends that would be accepting to the idea of going to church or an event at church and enjoying themselves. The fact of the matter is young people who aren't into church are into other things. && personally from going to parties to church events myself...i think its all in the head. You know when you go to a "sus" party and you just do whatever to make it fun...well its the same at a church event. I try to find ones with young black people, just because black people know how to have fun. && usually I'm never let down. I do go for the word of course, but its always better to be able to laugh or dance or 2 step or socialize. So in essence, whatever you want to be fun can be fun and that is exactly the mindstate I have when I go to church. && when you have fun, you attract fun people...who will be willing to be around you more often. && So thankfully I have attracted some cool christian associates. I can't exactly say they are my friends yet, but we are getting there...and that's better than being alone period. You feel?

anywho...back to the twins...lol. I just don't even know if I'll ever see them again...and I hope so. I hope I get to come back to California. && I hope they get stationed in San Diego or something near and we can, on occassion, see each other. They are truly great people. Not often do I come across patient people like them. Laleisha and Jeanetta are the most real, loving, down-to-earth people I have met in a long time. Especially considering that they are from California, bc no offense to you Cali kids, but a lot of people in Cali are so FAKE! I don't know if its in the air or if its because Hollywood and its dramatics crosses over to the people around the greater Los Angeles county...but most people out here are just that...fake! && i didn't realize this until somebody told me they like me because I keep it real. I'm thinking "well how else are you supposed to keep it" lol. but then when I met people like Janea and my boss and many others along the way...i realized that people here just lie for no reason. They try to smile in your face and act a certain way but then behind your back they talk. I know now that throughout life, you will meet many people like this. But quite frankly I think this is because we live in California and that's how people are here. Competitive, selfish, and inconsiderate seem to be the main qulaities of many that live here. I have family in the south who don't even have inconsiderate in their vocabulary. && I also come from Dayton, Ohio where inconsiderate is common but at least they're real about everything. If your breath stinks they will tell you. If you go on a date and it didn't go well, they will tell you. If they just want to sex you, they will tell you straight up. I had to learn to keep my mouth shut about a lot when I came here because to them, its insensitive, but in Ohio, its just being real. && nobody takes offense because they know wassup. Anywho i do have to admit that I had selfish issues but I have been working on them very hard and I have to be proud of myself because I have come along way. I give much much more than I receive. But at the same time, I can never give as much as God gives and he blesses me way beyond my deserving and much more than I can ever repay him back for.

well I just happened to feel like talking right now so...i know you probably didn't really read that all...but its there for another day if you feel like you want to read it lol.

with scattered thoughts,

Cee.

2009-07-27T17:02:00.000-07:00

So I would really like to find a dress like this. More importantly, this whole look with the blazers and long sleeves rolled on the ends is becoming more popular. && ii like it. So I think I’m going to have to cop a blazer and a cute shirt to cuff undernearth. My fashion sense is coming back to me. So I’ve been away for a year and a half. I still got some good stuff in my closet. I sure do…so I think I’mma be back on it for the next few months until I leave for the air force. Or maybe I should just wait until I come back because my body most likely will be thinner and I’ll have to buy new clothes. Plus I’ll have all this money in the bank anyways…so I can’t wait until then. OOOO I can’t wait…I’m going on a shopping spree. It’s gonna feel mmm mmm good. But not a huge shopping spree, like the twins said they would do. Maybe like $1,000. No more…but yeah. I can’t wait for my life to begin.

to my surprise,

Cee.

while i have nothing to do,

2009-07-24T18:38:00.000-07:00

bc my cable is messin up and i have nothing to do right now. I have no fabric to use to sew with and my guitar gave ma cramp in my hand. So now I have nothing to do but blog about random crap. :-), so i just want to say that I fraggin love this dance! It was my favorite dance, and favorite couple out of the whole show for every season, no question about it. So here's Katie and Joshua...so cute!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vGG_w6vFApM

then I came across this kidd named Young Chozen. He is coo. He's not the best rapper in the world, but I like some of his music. It's coo. && the boy is swagged out I must admit. So then there's this album release party this Saturday, the 25th. He is supposed to be releasing his album with songs such as "temptation", and "I don't like nasty". I like that second song. He's like "i don't like nasty, I don't like nasty, I want a queen!" and I was like...aaahhh there's hope. I'm proud of these young boys doing there thang-tha-thang in Christ. Get it Young Chozen! So anyways I was checking out his page and all (youngchozen.com) and I discovered that there is a club for christians lol. This is so funny to me. Its called Club Judah. I can imagine its soooo corny. But i'mma check it out anyways because I have nothing better to do with my life this weekend lol. OO and there's another one called Club Zion but that one is in Pasadena...too far. But yea...that was funny. Thought I'd blog about it. ::shrugging shoulders::

bored,

cee.

bday adventures.

2009-07-23T21:15:00.001-07:00

so I kind of had a bday week...or at least a bday-few-day kinda thing. The day before my bday my rentals took me out...then on my bday I went to the movies and saw The Proposal, My Sister's Keeper, Public Enemy, and Transformers....i always try to catch the movies when there's at least 3 good movies out I want to see. So I figured why not go on my bday and enjoy the day. So then later I went to Bible Study and my lovely soulfoud bros got me some cookies and popsicles and pop. I thought that was so cute and nice of them and I want to thank them all for their effort. It was cool. && then the next day, I went to sonics with my chickas...it was fun. && that was my bday-few-day-kinda-thing. lol. I enjoyed my bday very much this year as opposed to lsat year. but nonetheless it was fun!

toodaloo...until next time,

Cee.

so today,

2009-07-21T10:53:00.000-07:00

is my BiiRTHdAy ya'll!!!!!!!!

i have some good plans ahead for the week. I think I should very much enjoy myself for my birthday...or rather bday week.

Cee.

story tiime.

2009-07-17T20:29:00.000-07:00

so today I was at work..just chillin'. && something funny, well kind of gross, but funny happened. So you remember when I said I worked at a special ed center...well one of the students here came to get in the pool (where I work). His teacher had left me in there alone bc she said she had to get his towel out of the classroom. So what HAD happened was...when she left this little boy Ray Ray was jackin' off in the pool. OMG, it was nasty but it was funy at the same time. Like...i didn't know what to do lol. I was looking back and forth like is anybody seeing this? I just pretended I didnt see it lol but he was getting louder. OMG. Then the teacher came back and was yelling his name "RAY RAY STOP"! omg...it was such an awkward moment bc I didnt know if she expected me to tell the boy to stop or not...sheesh. && then on top of that this kid named Tony would not get out the pool. But the REAL lifeguard wasnt trying to get in or use real force and I shoooowww wasn't about to get in so they called the Big Guns...lol. This black man came in yelling like a drill sgt. "boy get out that pool now!" && then he wouldn't listen so they had to use this pole (the kinds they use to get a dead body out of water) and dragged him out the pool. It was funny haha.

what a day.

Cee.

mmmm.

2009-07-16T20:55:00.001-07:00

i want some hems like
these...

shorts: hot.
skirt: yes.

Cee.

ensemble 12.

2009-07-15T18:59:00.000-07:00

i want,

Cee.

twins!

2009-07-13T19:40:00.000-07:00

so the 10th was the twins bday! i didn't even know i caught this pic, but i did so i'm putting it on here. anywho, anyone that can attest to being at the twins bday party/going away party will tell you it was definitely memorable. uhm......if you weren't dancing, you were laughing or eating. If you ask me, that's a good recipe for a fun party lol. Although the twins didn't seem to have a good time i think we all shared good laughs that night lol. Reaaaally good laughs. So in result to the burnt night, we went out the next night which was actuallly their bday night. See these fine boys we met at the pool party and even some of the delicious boys that go to our church, were promoting this club 650. *remember that serious crush i told you about in one of the blogs a while ago?...well he was there so i was definitely hyped. Little did we know that night was sooooooooooo not the bizz. whew, what a night! i would list all the details but my hand is cramping (cuz remember i burnt one so im typing with 1). Anywho..to sum it all up...it took forever to find this "club". Then when we did, it was like way back in the cut somewhere...like next to a trucking industry and the greyhound station. what is that about? so good thing it was free cuz it was like 50 people, maybe 70...yeesh. but we saw some ppl, well a lot of people we knew and laughed a bit and tried to make the best out of it. they kept stopping the music for long periods of time for no reason. UFO performed one song, which was a dope song but they kind of just talked over the song and stood behind the dj booth, which in my opinion, wasn't much to look at. I wanted more. Don't get me wrong UFO is pretty dope, but no further comment. Then after the party was over, the 10 entrance was in the cut and we could't find it for like FOREVER. Then we finally found it and the 110 was blocked off so we had to get off and take the streets, which of some were also blocked off...ugh! i was so tired, not to mention i was driving with 1 hand and ready to go to sleep. Whew I was happy to finally find the free way and take my booty home! What a night. eh.

keeping you posted,

Cee.

2009-07-13T19:22:00.000-07:00

so i was just trying to be a photographer while I was at work. You see God hooked me up this summer with another job. I was supposed to be working at a Special Ed Center, which I am. I don't mind working with special ed kids, although it can be kind of hectic, because I did last summer. But this summer, I got put on lifeguard duty in the pool. So from 8 to 12 I just swim or chill by myself unless kids come in, which isn't often. It's cool to me bc that's just what I like to do-- chill. LOL. Anywho, this pic below of a woman I saw before I went to this pool party in LA. IT was like on Crenshaw and Manchester. So sad. These birds and stuff -- Downtown Long Beach...juts recognizing the beauty of the world.

a photographer today,

Cee.

2009-07-13T19:12:00.000-07:00

so i have this new desire to sew. well not exactly new, but refreshed. I used to sew back in the day but for some reason i dropped the habit. Now I feel like sewing again. I was in the La Quinta Hotel with my auntie when she came to visit me and I peeped these curtains. I thought it would be PERFECT for a skirt...so I cut them lol. They'll never know it was me haha. Nah im just kiddin', i wouldnt steal. but I wish i would have bc it would be such a cute high wasted skirt! so cute..don't you think? Anywho i am gonna look up a sewing class or something and hope to find one so that i can make so pretty dope stuff for myself!

can't wait,

cee.

a day in downtown LA

2009-07-13T19:02:00.000-07:00

what a day,

i missed likee a month soo,

2009-07-12T01:24:00.000-07:00

Cee.

numero 11.

2009-07-12T01:22:00.000-07:00

i freaggin love the fit!!!!

Cee.

so i've been away,

2009-07-11T22:43:00.000-07:00

for a while bc i burned my hand really bad (2nd degree) and was on medication and under creams for a while. i kind of tuned out of the world for a while...my friends were wondering if i was okay as i wasn't returning any phone calls or text messages or aims...and my phone was barely on for the last week. There is so much I would like 2 say right now but i am only typing with one hand so i will have 2 make this shorter than planed. Anyways...as i got back into the swing of things....summer has been quite eventful. For instance, last sunday I went to this pool party. i would have had my own pics but it was 2 much work lol and there was 2 much water around...i mean my hand was bandaged up for this and steve-O was pushing people unexpectedly into the pool (phones, cameras, clothes, hair done and all)! I suppose I was one of the smarter ones to get in the jacuzzi myself before i was pushed into the pool involuntarily. Thus, i stole this pic from JoJo.

In addition to this, i went to Dowtown LA, found some adorable earrings for $.50...bomb. Then i went to Dowtown Long Beach as i found a solution to my library card problems. i just got another library card at the LBC branch...haha suckers! Anywho...man what a day that was. I took the bus again bc driving dowtown anywhere is a hassle. So there was a grip of people on the bus. 3 handicapped people were on 1 bus so that made the ride like 30 minutes longer (not to mention it was already crowded enough so everybody was stepping on each other). so some heavy dude stepped on my foot and ripped off my acrylic- ouch! but at least it didnt bleed. still Not Cute.

as i was relieved to finally reached my destination, i came across some interesting things, one of the including a young boy running from the police and trynna holla at me at the same time. Suprisingly he spoke very clearly bc he was running very fast. You know how niggas fly when they runnin' from the po po lol. He was like "hey i like yo pants" while he ran ahead of me. then as he ran behind me he was like "i would talk to you but im running". im thinkin NAHHH. lol then he start listing numbers "3234567.......-" trailing off as he hit a far away corner. lol. it was hilarious.

then i went to starbucks...ugh. i was so in the mood for a vanilla bean frap. the price for a tall said $2.50. so i get 3 dollas out expecting there 2 be tax. the the total came out to be $3.97. wtf. What kind of tax were they calculating for it to be over a dollar. It's not even $1.00 tax on $10.00...let alone $2. sooo i had 2 pass on that.

Then i finally went home which concludes my post for right now. My left hand is tired and so am I so may finish tomorrow.

Until then,

Cee.

ashamed.

2009-07-09T13:08:00.000-07:00

effin up! grrr.

4give me Lord.

i must try harder. smh.

cee.

eh.

sheesh. so much.

2009-07-09T12:32:00.001-07:00

as of now i am on my way to the library to sink my nose into some more interesting things. i have so much insight ans so many pictures 2 share as i have been away for a while. i have new or for lack of better words, rekindling interests and i would love to share them...well until i come bACK...MAY PEACE AND GOD BE WITH YOU.

Cee.

ensemble 10.

2009-07-01T00:33:00.000-07:00

simple but me.

Cee.

Tyler Perry: Brilliance!

2009-06-29T01:46:00.000-07:00

Has anybody ever noticed what a powerful and clever and talented man tyler perry is? He is powerful bc his playwrights, which turn into movies reach sooooo many people across the nation. He is talented bc of what he has the ability to write. He is clever bc he uses his ability to write 2 get people connected... and under it all...in every story God is in there. && people don't realize it but that's his way of bringing in the "regular" people who don't know God to question if there is one, which is a good thing bc at least they can explore the option and that is their oppurtunity to get to know God which is all they need. I want to give a big upps to Tyler Perry for doing that!

In awe,

Cee.

in hail to Michael Jackson--

2009-06-29T01:16:00.001-07:00

RIP MJ (1958-2009).

fashion expertise,

Cee.

sometimes I wonder.

2009-06-29T01:03:00.000-07:00

so i guess I have a mouthful today.

but uhm i do admire Solange's ability to express herself freely beyond human approval. But sometimes I am at a lost for words.

until later,

Cee.

so i've been taking the bus a lot lately

2009-06-28T23:44:00.000-07:00

&& its not that bad. I mean I used to take the bus every day for about 5 years. I do have a car, but sometimes a bus is less of a hassle. For instance, when you go downtown...there's meters everywhere that cost like a quarter for every 5 minutes or something like it. Then there's the parking lots that cost like 4 or 5 dollars for every 20 minutes. Its ridiculous. So I'd rather just pay my $1.25 there and back to take the bus.

On the other hand...when you don't volunteer to take the bus...its not the Bizz.

So the other day when my auntie Kim was going to the Fox Hills Mall to take my sister on a shopping spree. She wanted to go the day she was leaving so we were short for time. Since she had a rental car, the initial plan was for her to meet my mother somewhere so my mom could pick me and my sister up because my car was at home. But knowing Auntie Kim, I should have been more prepared. Auntie Kim took until the very last minute to come out of the mall (not to mention we split up and she wouldn't answer her phone ugh!). Then she had to turn her rental car in an hour early (which was by the airport). Now this wouldn't have been so bad if I wasn't on my period that morning and my cramps were kicking in at the wrong time with no medicine to help cope. So I called my mom who was was irritated that auntie kim was taking so long so she went to sleep and told me to take the bus. So me and my sister took 2 shuttle busses at the airport to get to 232 bus stop (which was on break for 30 mins). So we sat on the floor waiting for it to start up. Then the bus ride was like an hour long (which we went to sleep on) and then got off and walked uphill for 10 mins. UGH! I was so pissed and in pain. Not the bizz...anywho. I just felt like telling about that.

with lots to say,

Cee.

discovering something new.

2009-06-28T23:00:00.001-07:00

so at takeover today I discovered the beautiful voice behind a young man named PJ Morton. For those who already know him...I am aware I must be very late. However for those who don't, check him out. His voice is irresistable. So go check him out.

Cee.

was it just me,

2009-06-28T22:30:00.000-07:00

or was the 2009 BET Awards super wack this year? It clearly shows that most of the show was improvised at the last minute. I mean don't get me wrong, I love Michael Jackson and all the oldies that were reminesced along with the Jackson memories...but not when 2/3 of the award show is old school. && then for those who did perform that were modern...were weak. Uhm -- Keri Hilson was cute, but she was doing too much. I appreciate her efforts -- trying to dance and get all that in, but she's not that experienced. She can't do all that stuff Beyonce be doing, because Beyonce been doing this for 10 years. Keri boo...this is your begining. I know you wanna come out big, but we like your vocals. Just hit us with those bomb vocals...and I think we will appreciate it much more than you trynna come off as a Rhianna right off the back. I mean even Rhianna didn't start off that way. She was sweet and not well known in the beginning. She eased her way in there. That's how it works for all of us. Only a selective few can make a big entrance and be accepted...but idk...maybe Keri just needs some more time. But ur hurrrr is the bizzzneezz tho. I want that. I need that. It's fly. haha.Now onto Drake. Now if I wasn't on this Christian thing right now...I would have to say I absolutely love Drake and every song he ever made. However at the BET awards...uhmmmm his performance was so wack. He needs a little more time on him too. I need some more entertainment. Maybe its just me. Maybe the same things just don't entertain me anymore. Is it just me? or is talent lacking here? I mean like Keri with her vocals, Drake is ridiculously clever and a super dope lyricist, but his performance was lacking. So yeah...that's my 2 cents.

Hov...he was coo. I was entertained.

Mary Mary...uhm one of them Mary's wasn't representing God with them tight leather pants just screaming for attention to her derierre. But hey we all human. We do what we do. I should be the last one to talk with my huge behind lol and the tight jeans I wear. But oh well. I'm juss saying what I feel thats it, that's all.

I had to get that out because I kept my mouth shut for along time about alot of things. lol.

Just this once,

Cee.

whew...did u see lil mama's hair?

2009-06-28T21:23:00.001-07:00

enuff said.

until latez,

Cee.

ensemble numero 9.

2009-06-26T21:59:00.001-07:00

coo.

today's adventures,

2009-06-26T21:22:00.000-07:00

turned out to be dissapointing. I gave up my sleep this morning to go to the Downtown Library. I got there...and I found all these good books I was ready to read. I had like 8. I was all ready to check them out and they said I had $63 worth of fines! UGH!!!! i was so mad. So i had to leave because I was not about to pay $63. Then after waiting forever in the cold with aching feet, the freaggin 445 came and got me back to where my car was located. I cracked the window to my car so it wouldn't be so hot and guess what? A bird crapped all in the crack of the window so bird crap was splattered all over my back seats! UGH! My camera died mid day so I didn't capture much of this...althought I wish I had. But as I was walking I saw a young boy picking up, what looked to be his brother out of the car and placing him in a wheel chair. The boy seemed to be about 23 years old. He seemed to hardly be able to move as his head appeared heavier than his entire body. At this time, I realized that I need to suck up my irritation because I am extremely blessed. Things in life could be much worse. Yet, I have car, a job lined up, a garaunteed future...so why should I ever complain? God has kept me in good standing and has created a beautiful individual...so never should I walk around mad at the world because I wanted to read a couple of books and my car got crapped on. So at that moment, I plugged my zune in my ears, turned up "love him" by Crystal Aikin and cheered myself up. I am happy. I am alive. I am healthy. Get over it Chantelle! Anywho...some of those books I was going to read were some good books I discovered at the Christian Bookstore the other day. My friend Bree let me borrow her book, Authentic Beauty, by Leslie Ludy...which was an excellent read.

This book was about waiting to find the guy that's really right for you so that you can reach the most purest, beautiful love on Earth that was meant for you, by God. The author has found hers by reaching deeper intimacy with God. Thus, God sent her an earthly prince charming. I was encouraged to stop messing around with these doe-doe heads that call themselves men and trust God to send me my REAL prince charming. && I'm excited to see what God has in store for me. Some of the other books I wanted to read (but I couldn't check out at the library) included:

Sister, Ink by Rebeca Seitz
Christy and Todd: the College Years by Robin/Jones/Gunn

Answering the Guy Questions by Leslie Ludy

Mixed Bags by Melody Carlson

These books all leave inspirational messages relating to God, in your head. I especially like the mesages about how women don't need to degrade themselves by dressing appealing to males )by their standards). Buttcracks and cleavage are not necessary to show your real beauty. && I plan to continue to live by my inside beauty. By my heart, my personality, and my love for God will stand for my beauty and not my booty or my chest. Ladies...you feel me? Well you should.

From beauty within,

Cee.

semi-after party??

2009-06-26T20:27:00.000-07:00

Triflin' Venice Beach bathroom euh. Now to the good stuff:

well after I graduated, my family went on a little adventure. We went to Leimert Park to eat at this little Jamaican restaurant. Then we went shopping. The next morning we all had to wear white and black for our family photo shoot. The pics came out good but the hard copies aren't developed yet. It was all fun. Especially considering that my family flew from Ohio and Texas to see me graduate. Then we went to Venice Beach and had some fam bam bonding time. IT was coo...Here we are at the Jamaican restaurant. I had the Jamaican hot wings and the creole bbq shrimp....mmmm. delicious! Then there's Venice Beach. I got some weird pics but I decided to take some random pics. I thought they were "kinda" coo.

i like this 99c store bag top...lol i might rock that one day haha.
precious Aunt Melo and Grandma taking a motherly daughterly stroll ( u know what I meant) lol.

cool painting eh?

awww look. Mother and daughter (above) and Father and son ( below).

alligator made out of sand> tight.
&& my sister caught off guard.

cousins.

gotta say Do-Do- MAMMMAAA!!!!!

showered with love,

Cee.

my apologies: i am back.

2009-06-26T19:14:00.001-07:00

So this blog is going to look really really long because I have a grip of pics and they don't let you line them up horizontally so it just looks long, but its not. I wish you could just copy and paste these suckers though cuz they take forever to upload!!!!!My favorite counselor : Mrs. McNeel

long hair dont care Chris lol

brittnee and her cuzzo Mooney (idk her real name thats juss wat britt calls her ) lol

Bradley Pea and Brittnee

Esmerelda, Brittne and Orc with me.

Bree & Cee.

Lamar

Keron Me & MyMy

Angelina Ballerina

twins.

Akonam.

Grandma and Grandpa Jack. Clearly divorced+(.

the boys...cousin Myles, gpa Jack and daddy.

Gpa and Auntie Camille! my fav auntie...sshhhh tho don't tell nobody.

cuzzo Brittnae and sis Leah.

bestie JoJo.

Auntie Camille!

the cuzzins and the sisters.

the grandmas: grandma and granny

the aunties: Aunt Melo (with the hair) aunt kim (with the boobs) lol and auntie Camille! again

4 of us.

I GRADUATED! LETSSS GOOOOOOOO!

so the rest of the stuff i'm posting will be in another blog because this is just too much for one blog. k? k.

feeling accomplished,

Cee.

so michael jackson died,

2009-06-25T23:21:00.000-07:00

and the thoughts is mind boggling.I mean I know we all have to die someday, but deaths like these that are so unexpected and so sudden make me think. Life is awful short. We'd better take advantage of it and disocover who we are and set out to do what we were meant to do as soon as possible.

R.I.P. Michael Jackson.

With concluding thoughts,

Cee.

sorry i've been gone,

2009-06-22T19:59:00.001-07:00

but i haven't felt like blogging much. i do indeed have lots to blog about. i have lots and lots of pics to share... but not right now. so i'll be back later. prolly next week. k?

Cee.

P.S. trust me when I say i have a looooootttttt to say. :-).

sorry i've been gone.

2009-06-22T19:58:00.000-07:00

My last dose of curse words.

2009-06-16T21:08:00.000-07:00

So I decided to stop cussing. Does that mean I shouldn't laugh at it either. I'm sorry ya'll I had to post this. It's hilarious. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X-zqloFqhT4.

simple number 8.

2009-06-16T20:49:00.000-07:00

i'd wear,

Cee.

jesus freak,

2009-06-16T20:26:00.000-07:00

is what I have made a decision to be. I decided that I am going to represent Jesus as much as possible from now on. I've been doing some thinking. The last time I was at reup, Daven was talking about taking 6 months and devoting them to God. No boys, whatsoever -- just an intimate relationship with God. I have decided to tackle this challenge. I began June 14, 2009. So until December 14, 2009, talking to, dating, and even flirting is out of the question. I am excited to embark upon this Christian walk. I am eager to find new Christian friends and functions to build my life around Christ. It is a little hard to find friends right now that are fully devoted to Jesus and are honestly trying their best to stay that way every day. However, I trust God to bless me with some Christian friends that I can enjoy myself with and function with. Don't trip though, because I definitely won't be a bore. Stay tuned to see how much fun a Christian girl can have...one she finds a job haha. Anywho...I just decided to blog about that. I will be back later though.

Until next time,

Cee.

laughter heals the soul,

2009-06-08T23:41:00.000-07:00

On Saturday...too bad there were no pics bc it was quite an episode.

mannnn...the twins invited me to a baby shower to get out of my misery bc i was bored out of my mind right?

Mann was I entertained lol...uhm.
The twins's mama is ridiculous! 1 minute we are all walkin' to the car in peace and the next minute we turn around and the twins moms is yellin in her phone "i gotta master's degree bitch! dont fuck with me! hooker!" lol...just as lost as you are reading this...is eggzactly how lost we were upon hearing this. Turns out some lady called from a restricted number about some dude she wants exclusively...smh. At what age do you need to stop doing this? Anywho i got a good laugh for a good 20 minutes. lol...and even reiterated a well known fact..."niggas are no good these days" in the words of twins' mamma. lmao. && thats how that story goes.

oh yeah and i was in class today and Oscar said to me..."WHAT COLLEGE AM I GOING TO? I'm going to UCLA-- the University of Crenshaw Left on Artesia"...roflmfao.........whew. killer.

with good laughs,

Cee.

Lucky Number 7.

2009-06-08T23:37:00.000-07:00

vintage: yes please.

My style -->the pants, the belt, white shirt, tan gladiator heels. hehe.

i had an abnormal week,

2009-06-08T20:51:00.000-07:00

bc so many things were taking place. I am listing things out of order so don't mind the random days:

well on Friday I was really bored. && so I walked to Francisco's house and on the way I met Lance. Lance is 24. He was cute, however much too old for a 17 year old like myself. So while repetitively telling Lance I was too young to talk to him, he said he had a nephew who was my age "17 or 18" was a good look. Uhm...he gave me his #. I lowkey think he was using that to talk to me but who knows lol. Trynna be smooth hahhaha. i showed my sis his # on the little piece of paper he wrote it on and she laughed and said "why does he write like a 2nd grader when he's 24 years old. Look:

lol.

Anywho...he gave me Myron's number when I hit him up juss bc i was curious...haha. Lance hyped this boy up a little too much. "krystal (hence i tell people my name is Krystal when I don't trust them), my nephew myron is a cool dude and he got a car and his L's and he gotta job..." wamp wamp! So i'm talking to Myron and I give him the benefit of the doubt. For those who know me, imagine me saying "oooooo noooooo honey"...this is exactly how I felt. First of all:

this nigga has a lisence and no car

no job

no money

and no looks

and not into God

4 major flags to point you in the HELL NO section of chantelle's mind.

Next we have today when Lance's cousin decides to hit me up randomly. the convo goes somethin' like:

424...: good morning beautiful

Me: who is this

Carl (c): carl lance cuzn

Me(m): where did you come from, i heard of his nephew but he didnt say anything about u. why did u hit me up and how do u even know what i look like to be callin me beautiful

c: cuz im the shit im dark with brown eyez i got body i stay fly i go to lock high school and my age is 19

m: (eyebrows raised) uhmmm...

c: so when can i see you

m: ...........

Uhm no nigga. I'm sorry but I'm not fond of cocky boys. Crazy incident of thee day.

The week is not even over yet. lol. On tuesday I went to take the ASVAB test to see if I can join the Air Force. (yeah I know right). at first i went to get my social security card but then i was late for my test because i had to go to the one in torrance with 50 billion people in there...like an hour wait but there was this crazy security guard:

he was yelling out crazy random crap like we were in some bingo hall...ridiculous. Not only was he there, but look at this clow with the cowboy hat --black as can be...and his ringtone was a damn rooster yell. uhhhhmmmm? lol. its hard to see him but spot the cowboy hat on the end. wow.

Well, when I went to meet my recruiter, he wasn't there. but arredondo was...and oooo arredondo was fine ! lol i wish i had a picture. I don't know if it was the uniform making him sexy or what but heyyy homeboy was looking (inthewordsofthetwins) SO RIGHT!

lmao. So we talked as i waited for my cab and a old man arrived patting for me to sit in the front seat. Who sits in the front of a cab? yeah i passed on that. so i took the test, got a decent score and came back to an African cab driver who was on the phone and couldn't drive. Ugh. So many people were honking at him. I was really concerned for my life. && that day was melancholy...not the bizz. ANywho...

my last part of the week concludes in bible study on tuesday (yes we're jumping back).

mannn we had a ball. we ate some cake. Moriah made one and Josh made one too. it was good. I look forward to Bible study too...like Kyron says..."we get it in at soulfood" haha...Angel made some chocolate strawberries and cookies and I brought the milk (which Josh found his home in lol). Plus it was some additional cuties to add to the weekly devotion (can we say bonus!) hhaha. But thats not what we go for of course. this week we learned from Exodus 18 about how Moses and his people in the land worked together to develop a system where there were rulers over tens, hundreds, and thousands...and the subjects came to them with their problems to solve and if their ruler couldn't solve it they would ask the higher ruler and if nobody could, that's when they brought their issue to God. Good lesson. thanks kyrizzle!

&&that would be my week.

expressed out,

Cee.

P.S. Laleisha's nails from prom were bomb.

too blessed to be stressed,

2009-06-05T17:51:00.000-07:00

is what I am. I have been stressed out with all this senior work, and finals, and boys, and dealing with future plans. I think its because I don't have reup anymore to keep me on point. && i also don't have bible study to keep me encouraged to live like a Christian daily. Well now that my night class is over, I have been back to bible study. In the meantime, I was back sliding and fulfilling my own pleasures knowing that I have not been pleasing God. However when things start getting scary, I called on God and asked him to show me how he promised to be my provider (jehovah jirah). && sure enough he did. I have been getting gas money from random people. They are the only reason I'm still driving. I have $0 in my bank account because I no longer have a job and there were so many things I had to pay for. Now today, I was on my way to committing a horrible horrible sin -- One that I haven't committed in a very long time. However, before I even got to get there, Urban Outfitters called to say I had an interview (i never get interviews)...so exciting!!! Anywho, i believe that was a sign from God. I think he was trying to tell me "chantelle, don't do it. i have an oppurtunity for you so don't mess it up". With that said, God has showed me how he can be my provider and I'm grateful he even had my back like that. Mannnnn God is good! mmmmmmmhm. Thus, I am reminded that I am blessed and have been for a while now. Blessings were scarce for a minuto but they're back. God is ever so merciful. Anywho...i can't be stressed anymore with a move like that. God gives me inner joy that is beyond human understanding.

Joyful,

Cee.

B.A.L.I.F. yes!

2009-06-05T00:24:00.000-07:00

H.A.Y.B.N.S.A.Y.M --> a la Holla At Ya Boy, No Scream At Ya Man...haha now this is a man worth screaming over!!!! Bobby. This is a well structured Christian man. I believe he's single ladies haha. but idk. All I know is that I love his art. He is a writer/poet/rapper/minister/actor/everything. Gosh...anywho. I just wanted to put you on B.A.L.I.F. Yupp thats what they call him. He's having an album release concert soon. Info below. But you can preview his album at the link below:

http://www.digstation.com/AlbumDetails.aspx?albumid=ALB000030807

BALIF ALBUM RELEASE CONCERT

JUNE 12TH

FREE!

7:30 PM

TESTIMONIAL C.O.G.I.C

5701 s. WESTERN AVE

LOS ANGELES, CA 90056

u there? i'm definitely there! twins is there! is u rollin?...i mean its free! && u'll enjoy urself. good fun guys! hmu for info.

aim sn: andceegoes

Promoting art today,

Cee.

hot fit.

2009-06-05T00:19:00.000-07:00

could care less for the pic. i digg the fit. look how that skirt fits...bomb.

ensemble numero cinco.

2009-05-28T07:38:00.000-07:00

this is charlie brianna. i love her style. i love this outfit. Charlie B's blogspot: theartofcharlie.blogspot.com-->she's fabulous.

Fashionista too,

Cee.

fed up!

2009-05-25T22:16:00.000-07:00

Today, I thought too much. As I always do...I let the scattering thoughts that flew across my mind crowd up all the space available to function. So I just laid there in my bed and let the thoughts swim around. && as of today, I am fed up. I am tired of this life. I feel like every day is pointless. I have no job, no work to do (school is almost over), and no responsibilities (no real ones) so I'm stuck. I'm usually involved in something. Now I am doing nothing. The fact that my parents have let me go and allowed me to explore the indepedence that shall follow with my approaching adulthood contributes much to my idleness. && they say idle time is the devil's workshop. i believe this is true. For the past few months of my life, I have been in progress-- keeping myself busy, going to church 3 times a week, and growing as a Christian. I have dropped those out of my life that are bringing me down and worked on myself to become more beautiful on the inside every day. However, since I no longer have a job and I barely have school these days, I believe that my idle time has been an open door for the devil to work in me. I have no clue what my college decision is. I have no clue what I'm going to really do with my life and if i have even the slightest idea, i have no clue how to get there. I have fallen back into the trap of exes. ugh. I know i don't need a man. Sometimes i just feel like I want to be held. Even if it is a relationship I know won't work, and that I know would go nowhere, I still go back to these EXES because I know they love me and I just like the idea of someone loving me. I don't feel completely loved in my home. && to be honest, I love God, but I don't feel his love physically as I want to. I know God loves me, but quite frankly, he doesn't make me feel held at night. He doesn't call me in the morning to tell me Good morning and that he loves me. He doesn't buy me lunch or tell me how great of a person I am. With God I feel punished, not to undermine my constant blessings. But in a relationship, I feel on top of the world. With God, I feel under a rock. So now I'm stuck and feel like I have no way out. I am soooo sick of life right now and just want to move away from everything to define myself with new people and engage myself in new things. I want to act. I want to go to San Diego State University. I do not want to serve in the Air Force, or the Army, or the Navy. I do not want to loose 15 pounds. I want to take acting classes. Sadly, none of these things will go my way. So for now i can only continue to listen to my music, trapped in the world my sleep and trust that God will bring my life back together.

Extremely frustrated,

Cee.

Quotes of the day.

2009-05-25T14:04:00.000-07:00

i be ready she dont be... she be ready i dont be.... always missing each
other- Karl.

Hittin' and cussin', no discussin.
-Bernie Mac
Shut that up.
-twins
how u figure???" - chettah

"We dont want macaroni anymore we want steak...and what do we want with our steak? MACARONI!!!" ~ Boy Meets World

love has no color - kevin michael.

simplicity.

2009-05-20T23:11:00.000-07:00

classic but so me. i would wear this in a heartbeat. Anywho, just ensemble #4 of the week.

cute,

Cee.

pictures are worth a thousand words.

2009-05-19T17:52:00.000-07:00

Tyeisha's bday.

random white people at HomeTown Buffet.

AT Biola University.

Micro runnign them stairs. Get it girl.

get that track OrC!

me and Jo Bro after the meal.

@ our spot El Paso. y e sss 2 happy hour :-).

in line with britt to get some free hot dogs and burgers hehe.

the ring Jo Bro got me...such a good friend.

i peeped it like...thats's cute. Turned my head for 2 secs and JoJo got it for me!

El Paso again.

Jo Jo.

Janella workin on them lunges.
Go Girl's Fitness!

free food again!

Ezz, Britt, and Orc!

sneak peak of thee prom dress for his prom.

sneak peak of dress for my prom...

get uhm Cece....

mmmmmmmhhhhmmmmm.

mmm cake!

get em Britt!

Bree's fantabulous hair after a workout haha.

Biola University...2 many white people for me. sorry.

It's nice campus tho.

Anywho, that was my week described in more pics than words. Its scrambled all up bc it takes forever to upload pics on thee blog and i didnt feel like waiting for ever pic and puttin it in order. Just wayyyy too long. But...anywho more to come very soon.

For this week,

Cee.

#classica. (numero 3)#

2009-05-14T22:52:00.000-07:00

classic.
i wanna parka.

i love the cut.

Until later,

Cee.

takeover is coming!

2009-05-14T22:42:00.000-07:00

This week is takeover!!! WHEW! its gon' be fun ya'll. I'm asking anyone to come with. I promise it will be the bizz. o && don't forget to stay fresh.

400 Florence Ave
Inglewood, CA

Hit me up for the info. Comment below.

Ensemble Numero dos.

2009-05-08T12:04:00.000-07:00

i digg the fit.

me,

Cee.

Sparks of Interest.

2009-05-07T08:54:00.000-07:00

So I been peeping this guy James Marsden. He's SEXY. && let me tell you why. First of all for a white boy, look at him...

Second of all, he's such a chameleon. He has been in numerous movies and his parts are so far apart from each other. X-men, 27 dresses, The NoteBook, Sex Drive, Enchanted, Hairspray...etc. He's so versatile. && actors that find the inner drive to perfect their skills and execute it with such brilliance deserve major props. && James Marsden is doing his thang-th-thang. Big Ups to him -- seriously. I have admiration for him and plan learn from him.

That is a sexy man. A man that handles his business, works hard and is bomb at it. I just love that. && I don't even dig white boys like that lol.

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Now to my girl Ellen Page.

I don't think people understand the extent to which Ellen P, a.k.a Juno is on fiyahhh!

Not to many people know about Ellen's projects but takes on roles that are far-fetched and reaching. She is only 21, but she is the shiiiii... Check her out. She's doing big things yo.

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Oh KeKe Palmer.....

Keke is a gangster! I met her before...and she has some ghetto in her lol. But she did not let where she came from prevent her from getting where she's going. In the past 5 years, KeKe has had 3 blockbusters, and her own show. I admire KeKe for what she does. She is following her dreams and works very hard. && she 's only 16.

"Yes I'm hood, H-O-O-D, don't speak on it if you don't know what it means. I came from the hood, over came in the hood, was raised in the hood, yes the hood is in me." -Keke P.

Get it girl! Keep it moving KeKe.

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&& last but not least for today;

Dakota Fanning.

When at 15 years old, you already have worked with Denzel Washington, Sean Penn, Robert Dinero, etc...you have to be the shit. Where does this kidd acquire her level of acting skills? It's just ridiculous! I just want to get inside her head. WTF she isn't even my age yet and is already a multi-millionaire. She is making like 20 million per movie....BOMB. Big Ups to Dakota. You the sh*t girl!

Inspired,

Cee.

No more...

2009-05-06T07:37:00.000-07:00

One of my fav Hollywood couples...

I can't believe Nas and Kelis got a divorce. They were the cutest weirdos in their own world I knew. I have very much admiration for Nas. His words are powerful and he uses the microphone effectively unlike these other rappers who waste time (a la Soulja Boy ugh).

"Your a slave to a page in my rhyme book". -Nas

Now Kelis -- she's just a big ass weirdo! But ii Love HER. She has this careless-eff-the-world attitude. &&not to mention she looks cute when doing it lol. You know when people say "oh I don't care about anything, eff the world", they usually look like this:

Luckily Kelis cares about her appearance lol, bomb.

Anywho...they were adorable together. I could only imagine that their world was on some whole other level lol...on another planet. && to see the demise of their relationship, just gives me no hope these days. Nobody lasts anymore. Makes me wonder about my outlook. Eh.

One of those boo-missing days again,

Cee.

cuteness.

2009-05-03T22:08:00.000-07:00

hehe.
mmmmmm.

speechless.

But to say, it shouldn't always be about looks. I like this guy who isn't the most attractive person in the world. He's cute, charming, funny, and into God to the fullest extent. I am so in love (not literally) with his personality. With some people you can just feel that they have a good heart. I get that vibe from him. Some people radiate with beauty from the inside. This one does. But he would never be interested in me. lol...he's too old. I hate that I'm attracted to older guys so much bc my chances of gettin with them are like 0 to none lol. Oh well. I can't help who I'm attracted to.

Wanting him,

Cee.

Eventful Weekend #1.

2009-05-03T21:01:00.000-07:00

&& the Summer is almost here! So this weekend was a preview to how things are going to roll for much of my summer (minus a few things). Anywho...This Friday I was invited to my friend Emerald's cousin's bday party which kinda sorta started at like 6. But then I found out my sister had a performance at 7, not to mention reup was at 8. So i had to go to my sisters show. The little white kids put on a show for the teachers and it was hilarious! My sister is a beast though. She already choreographs at 11 years old.

So that show started late and my madre said it would be over in about an hour. So at 8 I expected to leave and get to reup at like 840 because I had some people to pick up. Anywho, the performance wasn't over til like 830 and I had to go all the way to LA to get my friend Tyeisha for reup. Sheesh. So then I ended up getting to reup at like 930...ugh. I hate being late to places. I mean thats' not that late considering they just mess around for an hour. But its kinda fun to me because thats when I socialize. Anywho...before this all even happened let us not forget that I took my homie Orcim (Micro) to Emerald's softball game to support her before her season was over. That was in Baldwin Hills...yeesh. && when I looked up the directions, I was in a hurry and I guess when I put in the address I just put in Baldwin Hills so I found Baldwin Hills but not the Baldwin Hills Rec and was lost for a good 30 mins lol. Anywho...Ezz (Emerald) was a freaggin beast! This kidd is a HEAVY HITTER. We couldnt stay the whole game though bc Orc's 'rentals was trippin' and my sister's performance was at 7. So I ran into traffic on the way back and then on to reup. So all summed up that was from Harbor City to Wilmington to Baldwin Hills Estates (around and lost) to Baldwin Hills Rec Center to Lomita to Harbor City to Lomita to Los Angeles to Inglewood to Los Angeles to Lomita to Harbor City and to sleep. My gas was gone! Nonetheless the day was worth it and reup was bomb. Too bad there won't be anymore after next Friday (:-() but Takeover is coming back next next Sunday!!!! haha.

Then on Saturday I went prom dress shopping. I found some cute things but my mother wanted to keep looking to make sure she didn't get ripped off and find a similar dress to the ones I like for a cheaper price. Whew what a loooonnnnngggg day. But I was satisfied at the end of the day with my Berry ice cream with all the toppings in the world. :::sigh:::.

&& dang next Sunday is already Mother's Day! Sheesh. I mean don't get me wrong I love my mother and everything but it just popped up so quick. I don't even know what to get yet and I have 7 days. eh.

Sunday was coo. Went to church in the morn...felt a lil cute. Saw some boo's (i have a bout 5 lol) cuz my church got some cuties haha.

Welp...I know I had a lot to say but oh well.

Until next time,

Cee.

Bomb Ensemble for this week,

2009-04-30T22:46:00.000-07:00

I love the look.

♥

From Reup to Takeover!

2009-04-30T22:26:00.000-07:00

if this will not be the bombest church service you will ever attend in your young adulthood than I will pay you $5. Lol...see that fineness on the flyer. That beez Justin from Baldwin Hills...Hence, that's the kinda fineness you will encounter at this church. NOT THAT WE GOING TO CHURCH FOR THE DELICIOUS BOYS (thats just a bonus lol) but it is fun. Its a big party for Jesus lol. We learn some things, we dance, we flirt, we reflect and we peace out. Takeover ya'll! It'll be here May 17, 10 AM Sunday service. Be there...I know I will. hehe.

Hope to see yall there,

Cee.

not a good look.

2009-04-30T20:48:00.000-07:00

&& so am I. Today was not such a good day. My parent made me feel really horrible. I don't see him much so it's hard to take it when he says I'm all these things I'm not. Granted, I am not perfect. I was once a VERY selfish individual. However, I have been working on my selflessness for the past 2 years. I have been extremely loving, tolerant of others, and giving to everyone around me. Sometimes I have even had my heart broken, stomped on, or walked over because of my newfound kindnes. However, he fails to realized that the slip ups I have are not intentional. If I do something selfish, it's not because I intend to hurt someone. Its simply because I am not thinking about what everyone esle wants all the time. But most of the time I do take others into consideration. && it kills me so much inside to be bashed on when I slip up one time. It hurts because I am trying so hard to improve myself and to be a better person but when I take 1 step in the wrong direction ALLLLLL the past mistakes have to be held against me. I'm tired of crying over spilled milk. I'm tired of being looked at as this HORRIBLE person inside when I'm a very loving person. I mean they say that SELFISH people are in denial and they make excuses for everything. But I have admitted to my selfishness and everyone is selfish to some extent. I am not perfect damn! Anywho...I just wish he could see how beautiful of a person I really am inside. If you ask any of my real friends they will tell you how dependable I am if they ever need me. How giving I am, and how I have a big heart and love to help people. So...this act is getting ridiculous. I am ready to leave the house. I need to go. College...I NEED YOU TO COOPERATE! UGH. Sorry it had to be such a gloomy post...but it will be better next time I promise.

Just venting,

Cee.

uhhhm Obssesed,

2009-04-28T19:10:00.000-07:00

has dissapointed me. It got incredibly too much hype for what it was worth. I must admit that for a story plot, the role of Lisa went much further than what my mind could conceive. Of course that had to be the works of Ali Larter, who I think is a bomb actress. She stole the movie, as she should have. I mean I guess for a typical observer, this movie was coo. But I watch movies from an actor's point of view. Ali Larter did her thing, Idris Elba (the black nigga) held his own, but Beyonce............................................................................................................ && she should officially change her government name to Sasha Fierce if she was going to stay in Sash's skin during this movie. I mean damn Beyonce', be vulnerable. She was basically playing herself. I don't know what ya'll think but I thought she did a horrible job. CAN'T ACT WORTH A LICK. Sorry Beyonce lovers. I mean I love her too but not on that screen, just in music videos and on the concert stage. Mannn am I glad I watched that at home and didn't waste $6+ on that movie. I would have been highly pissed.

In class,

Cee.

Zazz in the BOX. && Chettah.

2009-04-27T21:43:00.000-07:00

Hey its a chettah PARTAAAYYY! LOL...

UHM...so there's this rapper named Chettah. He's ridiculously sick along with these Fly Guys named Fly Guys haha.

anywho...words can't describe how sick this crap is. Both of their mixtapes are juss reDONKULOUS!

Fly GUYS mixtape Zazz (in the Box): http://www.zshare.net/download/5679335641492bbf/#

Chettah: datpiff.com--> Chettah: Dollar & A Dream

check em out.

I'll pay you 5 dollars if you don't think its the ishhhh. haha.

Cee.

Howard U!

2009-04-27T20:57:00.000-07:00

so today I got an acceptance letter from Howard after sending them my paperwork 5 million times! ugh...it like takes away from the excitement when you had to speak to such rude staff members and had to deal with them being irresponsible numerous times. Lol...nonetheless I am still excited and now even more confused. See...I really ♥ SDSU...but I would love to experience Howard University as well. Howard would be an enriching experience as my eyes would become open to the many different intelligent African American individuals attending a top HBCU. However, SDSU has the culture and the atmosphere I wouldn't mind being in. I mean I've visited and I just love it! Howard would be so fun but it would also limit me because I'm not sure I would get the oppurtunity to exercise my career choices. For instance, I want to try acting out ON THE REAL. && being in Washington D.C., would not give me what I need to do so. If I stay at SDSU, I have the people that are already in the business to motivate me as healthy competition and I can explore that world. I just DON'T KNOW right now...but I have exactly 3 days to make a decision as my intent ot enroll fee is due May 1. Ugh...we will see how this pans out.

Frustrated,

Cee.

P.S. My friends Ezz and Orc (don't question the names) lol...have been very supportive and I thank them very much. They are great friends! Thanks guys.

adventures of REUP && the rest.

2009-04-25T21:27:00.000-07:00

so there's this place, or event, well i don't really know how to describe it---but they call it reup. && its like church, but kind of a kigg it spot too. It's on Friday nights in this place called the Living Room which is part of Faithful Central Bible Church. Anywho...it's a pretty coo place and you guys should def join me. Not to mention, its some FINE-NESS up in there every friday haha. ;-). Last night, Queen spoke. I always love to here a young woman preaching the word and touching her peers so effectively. Queen never fails to do so. Anywho...the twins, Misha and I adventured to the HOOD to drop Misha off at home. On account of my radio being messed up, we decided to have our own radio session lol.

Plus I found a prom date! haha...he's a cute one yes he is!

The story to that goes a lil somethin' like this: i spotted this cutie in the crowd at the end. && Misha's crazy (mini Madea) self decided to go up and ask this dude that moment. I'm like "no misha I don't wanna look all thirsty. That's weird." Misha, " girl let's go. You betta' quit acting all shy." LOL and we went to the back and I asked this boy how old he was. He says to me 22. I'm like "ooo u too old sorry" lol. So he's like "what's going on". I say " oh I was going to ask you to my prom but your too old." "Oh I was gonna go to", he says. So then Misha hunts him down after he walks away and gives him my numero. && me and this cutie t alk all night until its time for me to hit them sheets. && that's how that story goes. Note: this story COMPLETELY UNDERMINES THE EXTENT TO WHICH MISHA PHILASHAYE IS CRAZY! But there will be many future stories to evaluate lol.
had a video but it won't upload...so maybe latez.

P.S: Since I found a prom date, today I decided to go looking for a dress. I went to the South Bay Galleria....OMG it brought back so many memories. In the Middle School days...that was the spot lmao. All the little 7th and 8th graders would go there to the movies and we loved it. We used to tell our parents we were going to be with our (girl)friends but meet up with the boo everytime. :::sigh::: I miss those days. Back in the day when I was young...you finish.

Next time come with,

Cee.

Bow Wow is someone brand new.

2009-04-24T13:49:00.001-07:00

I mean its no new news to anybody that Bow is like the #1 cocky nigga in the universe. Well maybe not #1, but I think we pay attention to his cockiness so much because us females think he's so fine and realize that he would be so much more attractive if he stopped talking about himself and how much money and how much p**** he gets all the time. I mean its ridiculous! I used to be in love with him back in the Puppy Love days haha when he was still humble. Now I can't stand to hear his mouth even though he does sound sexy lol. Everything that comes out of his mouth lacks so much substance...

Anywho in the past 2 years, Bow decided to go out on his own limb and make music without the imput of those (J.D.) that made him hit records before. He wanted to prove that he could sell just as many records with his own ideas...NOT. LOL...his album flopped and now he's back holding J.D.'s hand because he is his last hope. Yeah...sucker. Maybe if you weren't so into yourself you could pay attention to what your fans want. Nonetheless...his new single is hot (with J.D.) lol. Point taken. You COULD GET IT ALL.

P.S. does anybody notice that Bow looks liek 3 completely different people lol.

Wondering thoughts,

Cee.

Blessings...

2009-04-24T10:53:00.001-07:00

Today, I did something good for my enemies. As God would want me to represent myself as so, I have done a good thing today. I simply slipped a dollar bill into my enemy's purse. She will never even have to know that it was me. Rather she got the dollar or not, I have showed God that my heart is willing to love and forgive. In result, God has continued to bless me extremely. I found $120 today. I also got a call for another job today. HaHA! Y e sss! The lord is GOOD YES HE IS! hahaha...anywho I figured I shared that with you guys and let you know that he is a good God.

Speaking of blessings...

This nigga is bomb today! Thank You Jesus for that...mmmm!

A [bomb] day,

Cee.

Millionare Matchmaker && love.

2009-04-23T21:18:00.000-07:00

This lady here, Patty Stanger, is a so called Millionaire Matchmaker. I watch her show. It is quite interesting. She hooks up people for a living. Not only is she extremely successful in hooking love birds up, but she is behind hundreds of weddings. So clearly she has the good good on catching a man/woman on both sides of the fence. She thinks like a man but still knows what its like to be a woman. She is harsh, but she knows what she's doing.

Anywho, she was on the Tyra show and she had 5 tips on how to catch a man. Lol. Hey, who knows...you may find them to come in handy. These are irrelevant to my life right now but they might be relevant to yours lol. Here's the 5 Tips Patti gave about catching a man:

Grow out your hair (idk what she talking 'bout here...my momma has short hair and my parents have been married for 20 years and i got short hair and uhhhmmm I lowkey be pullin so...idk what she talking about lol)
Get fit - exercising makes you feel better and a happier and that helps you attract men
Get away from your friends- their advice often drives you away; they don't have minds like men so they often don't know what they are talking about
Get dating cards (that MUST BE for white people lmao) no comment lol
Make a wish list- oooo mines is:

loves God
intelligent and able to hold an intellectual conversation
clean...can't be dusty and busted lookin' lol
in college or college bound
must be able to handle a strong woman
can be funny lol that won't hurt
able to treat me like a lady at all times...never like im another nigga
not cocky...that is not cute
must be done sucking mommy's titties (sorry but its the truth, get a job and quit taking her money); hence man up!
understands a woman but not a simp
thinks for himself
doing something with his life and ambitious

Now i know this seems like its impossible but I have had it before TWICE out of 4 boyfriends. LOL, yeah they are a little hard to find but it is worth it when you don't have to deal with ignorance and drama and baggage. 'S why i don't date much nowadays but i don't avoid it either. So fellas...if you have most of these qualities...I'm single and minglin' hehe.

Missing a boo,

Cee.

1 last quick word.

2009-04-23T07:26:00.000-07:00

Who fights in blogs? That is the stupidest crap I ever heard. The funny thing is...i'm laughing at the whole situation. :::sigh:::. Silly girl. Move on. You are 18 years old. Get some class...you know what. I'mma give ya'll her blog so you can see the radiating ignorance that consistently flows out of her mouth. Let's grow up and move on please. Thank You. -->jbdarealist.blogspot.com<--See if you can stand to even read all that nonsense.

With class,

Cee.

P.S. Feel free to comment. Haha. I love honesty.

2009-04-22T22:17:00.000-07:00

Look at how relaxed my Statistics teacher decided to get...lol. Just took her shoes off. She be filing her nails during class. She cracks me up.

&& then this lady that was sitting 2 seats away from me...was like the annoying kidd in class that never stops asking questions. I mean I understand you wanna get your learn on and everything but when your questions become "Do we put a line under the equation when we add?," or "is 10 times 48, 480 bc I tried to do it in my head and i guess i have to do it with a calculator cuz my calculations are wrong," then there's a problem. Dang its already late. Ask questions after class after we all left...dang. We wanna leave... and you over here asking questions adding time to the class. ugh! This lady is a trip. lol.

What a night,

Cee.

What if [Cee].

its about that time,

bootcamp.

im going crazy (in a bad way).

5 days.

I can swirl!

Ayda- Gotta Get Out (cover)

new life.

Tyra: A BIG LET Down.

on blast.

17!

why is it everytime i go to the library...

16.

my day.

quince.

I Love GRITS!

smh at LBC in its entirety.

everybody's leaving.

next hairstyle.

numero 14.

hatin'. lol.

Orcim!!!

13.

to travel. to live.

breathing in adele.

pretty wings better than maxwell much?

Friday afternoon adventures.

haha. Best I Ever Had white boy.

Jesus!

remember O'ryan?

:::sigh::: 12.

2 much gurl.

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orphan.

so they left.

while i have nothing to do,

bday adventures.

so today,

story tiime.

mmmm.

ensemble 12.

twins!

a day in downtown LA

i missed likee a month soo,

numero 11.

so i've been away,

ashamed.

sheesh. so much.

ensemble 10.

Tyler Perry: Brilliance!

in hail to Michael Jackson--

sometimes I wonder.

so i've been taking the bus a lot lately

discovering something new.

was it just me,

whew...did u see lil mama's hair?

ensemble numero 9.

today's adventures,

semi-after party??

my apologies: i am back.

so michael jackson died,

sorry i've been gone,

sorry i've been gone.

My last dose of curse words.

simple number 8.

jesus freak,

laughter heals the soul,

Lucky Number 7.

i had an abnormal week,

too blessed to be stressed,

B.A.L.I.F. yes!

hot fit.

ensemble numero cinco.

fed up!

Quotes of the day.

simplicity.

pictures are worth a thousand words.

#classica. (numero 3)#

takeover is coming!

Ensemble Numero dos.

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